Dear Santa,
It may seem childish to still believe in you but don’t we all just need to believe in something magical and relates to our childhood a little bit. I haven’t wrote you a letter in years but today I thought I would because this year for Christmas everything seems different and I could use a little magical feeling around Christmas. It seems the holiday has approached so fast and I just can’t get a grip on the reality of it all. It’s crazy to think that Christmas is only 17 days away. How can it be that this year has went by that fast? I have really started to not like Christmas. I love the meaning behind it and I love the celebration but the family part and all the loved ones that I miss on Christmas gets me every time. I haven’t had a real Christmas in about 4 or so years which really kind of sucks. It seems like I just can’t catch a break around the holidays. All I do is fight with my mom or have to deal with depressed people when I myself am depressed during the holiday season. I haven’t had a Christmas with my brother in four years yet it seems that it’s still all about him. I haven’t gotten anything for Christmas from my parents in about three years and it hurts. I know the season is not about gifts but just this year I would like to have a real Christmas again. I miss the excitement that used to happen around Christmas now all I want to do is just forget it happened. So Santa this year all I ask for Christmas is to have a good one. I just want to have a relaxing and joyful Christmas with no depression or fighting. Just me, my parents, and my little Stella. It would mean the world to me.
Love,
a girl who is not always on the nice list.
<3
