Well as of today I have been with my boyfriend for six months! It has been the most amazing months of my life. He is so good to me and treats me so well. He listens to me and takes my ideas to heart and lets me choose what to do. he will stay with me when I just don’t want to be around people. Though I do all the same for him. He is such a great person and the best boyfriend I could have ever asked for. I am so glad I found him and So lucky to call him mine. Everything is perfect right now and I hope things only get better. I’m so excited to see what the future will bring!
In other news school is back in session and man am I busy. It’s been hectic but I am making work. There are so many projects but that is my career. I am starting to think I either want to be in the hotel business running a hotel or I might want to be an even planner. I haven’t decided but I think this semester will really help me to decide what I want to do with my life and where I want to take this lovely career of mine. I have realized with my career I can go many different directions and I love that I have so many options to choose from it’s just a matter of picking what I want to do with my life. So for now it’s just concentrating on school and my amazing job till I graduate.
It may seem childish to still believe in you but don’t we all just need to believe in something magical and relates to our childhood a little bit. I haven’t wrote you a letter in years but today I thought I would because this year for Christmas everything seems different and I could use a little magical feeling around Christmas. It seems the holiday has approached so fast and I just can’t get a grip on the reality of it all. It’s crazy to think that Christmas is only 17 days away. How can it be that this year has went by that fast? I have really started to not like Christmas. I love the meaning behind it and I love the celebration but the family part and all the loved ones that I miss on Christmas gets me every time. I haven’t had a real Christmas in about 4 or so years which really kind of sucks. It seems like I just can’t catch a break around the holidays. All I do is fight with my mom or have to deal with depressed people when I myself am depressed during the holiday season. I haven’t had a Christmas with my brother in four years yet it seems that it’s still all about him. I haven’t gotten anything for Christmas from my parents in about three years and it hurts. I know the season is not about gifts but just this year I would like to have a real Christmas again. I miss the excitement that used to happen around Christmas now all I want to do is just forget it happened. So Santa this year all I ask for Christmas is to have a good one. I just want to have a relaxing and joyful Christmas with no depression or fighting. Just me, my parents, and my little Stella. It would mean the world to me.
Honestly how can people be so mean. No kid should feel this way. I hope this kid has a big impact on everyone because to feel this way and be so young is not right. It takes a lot to make me cry and this just tore me apart. <3
This is my first Thanksgiving living by myself. It’s kind of weird not going to lie. I have to make the two pumpkin pies like I do every year but this time it’s in my own kitchen and I have to transport them to my mothers. It’s such a strange feeling. This whole experience of living on my own though has been strange. Going to my mom and dads just for a couple hours to visit then leaving and going back like a week later. It’s just different. Now this year for Thanksgiving though I will have to stay sober even though the biggest football game will be on The Packers vs the Lions. It’s going to be such a good game. I guess it’s still crazy to think I’m an adult now. I guess I truly was ready to grow up. <3